Regardless, He is Victorious

Tonight, I feel the weight of human flesh, weakness, my heart's struggle and yet my heart's passion & ministry.... somehow all at the same time....

With a desire to pursue a ministry loving on younger women through counseling, I find I am being burdened with the lies I hope to speak against.... as can be the case some times, the area in which you are seeking to serve in can become an easy target for the enemy to find footholds.... so tonight He reminded myself of some good truth in Hosea 11 of His unfailing love for me and for you. Then, I rebuked these lies by writing a few thoughts I'd like to share to encourage those who may find themselves believing similar lies...know this: there IS power in the name of JC.

"You pursue, we praise mortal self...
You teach, we ignore...
You speak, we turn away...
You heal, we find another to praise...
You are kind, we look to the shadows of the true love we were created for.

You feed us, we horded...
You never give up, we often trade you in...
 You love fiercely, we forget-distracted...
You are compassionate, we kill-destroy-cut down.

You turn from anger, we pursue retribution...
You show mercy, we refuse to forgive, embittered...
You are patient, we blindly seek idols of security...
YOU are the creator of ALL,  we are man.

YOU ARE HOLY, we are but dust-sinful-underserving.
You will have your way, we are finally pulled in.
You DELIGHT in us, we are delighted IN by You!
You made creation your image, we carry the Perfect and Holy Image of You!

You will rescue, we rest in your grace!
You will be glorified, we resound with the Heavenly bodies in praising You...

We were helpless, You SAVED!
We are mere men, You are the Holy One!
We are saved, and you are VICTORIOUS!"


"Father, I come before you completely aware of my inability to fight battles alone. Right now I feel unsettled, I seem to be looking for something... something.... But Father, I don't want to dwell on this because you have brought me so far- You have walked me so far from that without me even realizing how many miles we walked... I have this vision of how you have one arm around me and your other hand resting on my arm. You are sheltering me in your embrace. Father to child. You are walking confidently, continually looking up often- almost in excited anticipation of whats ahead.. yet, your footstep speaks patience and assurance; your arm around me does not push, it comforts. We begin by staggering forward... I'm barely able to stand. You don't sweat it, for you are Strong! But, we shuffle along in baby steps. My body, weak. I'm trembling and racked by my sobs overflowing from a cup of pain, lies, the flesh. But then almost immediately, my cup is poured out and re-filled... we are jogging along- I'm getting anxious and filling myself of your excitement about the now and the future... soon I have faith we will be sprinting and then ahead I see a day coming when we will be perched atop a rock overlooking the valley low against the heighth of the mountain we just climbed. I will eventually see the beauty of the sunset's light playing on the angles of the terrain that has marked my path. And in that moment, the light dawns... I see your plan was good... all along your plan was good." 

May the Father help us in our unbelief, give us grace to trust what we cannot see and experience "blessed are the ones who do not see and just believe"